Today I was feeling really alone...like I'm not quite sure where my place is. I did some chi qong to try to center and ground. I meditated to find some stillness. I rebel yelled to get rid of all the anxiety. I breathed through alternate nostrils until I nearly fainted in an attempt to chill.out. Wandering is still heavy in my heart and home feels very far away. After a full day I got home and laid on the couch, and though I'm not really a tv person I just wanted to completely tune out and turn off. I watched the final few episodes of Shameless, which was amazing, but the highlight was the song that played during the finale. It was "Ends of the Earth" by Lord Huron. The music itself fit my solemn sad mood, and the lyrics captured and summed up my heart. So amazing how powerful music can be. Check him out. I've been listening to him on spotify for over an hour now and I want to melt into the music...it's *that* good.
"There is no feeling, except the extremes of fear and grief, that does not find relief in music."
― T.S. Eliot